So here I am, watching yet some more people play a video game that I do not have time for. I know video games distract me too much when I'm doing homework, but at least it's better than me sitting in the library trying to stay awake as I try to focus on my homework.
When I think about it, I start to realize that many of my friends have become bad influences for me. I'm not trying to say that they are bad friends, what I want to say is that I don't want their bad habits rubbing off on me. I always try to do my best to see the best in them and I know that they have taught me a few things here and there. But every once in a while, I start to think that my friends are dragging me down. Sometimes, I wish they wouldn't try to keep me away from my goals in life. Or maybe It's my fault. Maybe I've created an expectation from them that causes them to think that I would rather procrastinate on my homework or even pass on doing it. Heck, maybe I'm just "wrong." Wrong in every way possible and my interpretation of life is so skewed that I'm just having a rough time trying to conform to a right way of living life.
Am I the one who is a bad influence on them? I always try to maintain a positive attitude with my friends and I know that some of them do respect me, at least when I'm present. But what do they say when I'm not there? Are they talking behind my back cracking jokes and making me look like a fool? Do they see me as a horrible human being corrupted by my own self indulgence? Sometimes I wonder....
I have the same problems. I should be studying more than I am now but the extra time is usually spent with friends instead.
ReplyDeleteIt's one of the pitfalls of college life. Nothing new there. You just have to learn to cram (or never see your friends again, your choice).